Life Goes On... ;D

Finally, after all those dark moments and what seemed to be an endless form of pain behind my reflections, I can now say that I'm back again.

I can't figure out how it all happened but everything just seemed to fall back onto their rightful places. All my hopes and dreams that I have established when I was in high school are starting to get clear, the thick mist in my path have finally receded. More than that, though I may not know what lies before me in this path I have embarked in, I'm happy to know that there's nothing to be scared of and every thing's going to be alright.

The problem

Well, I brought with me all the little grains of my memories in the past, but I have no idea that it was going to take over me. Reminiscing all of it over and over again, I was literally living in a different world, one that is an exact replica of yesterday. Worse, I find it really pathetic to know that behind the writings I put inside my blog and in my very journal, are the walls I have built to lock myself away from reality. I was waiting for someone to come and rescue me not knowing that I was the one prolonging this pain and suffering; that I myself was the Torturer.

Changes

Everything is transitory in this world. And no matter what happens, we just need to accept all these changes that sometimes can be a little bit overwhelming and scary. Okay, scratch that. I mean, TOO overwhelming and scary. Well, that's at most what I learned from this very special someone who cared enough to read all my posts and make a reply. I guess she's the one who made me realize all this things I'm blabbering about. God sent me His helping hand through her. Stumbling upon that realization me makes even happier.

It really is different when you are acknowledging an omnipotent power to be the Hand of your destiny. Sometimes it's not really that bad to surrender and admit to yourself that you're not in control of your own fate. Yeah, we make hundreds of decisions everyday but still, only God knows why we're here. Even though I still don't know my whole purpose yet, it cheers me up to know that I have a purpose, a definite destination, and a meaning; that there's a reason for everything; and that my very existence is not an accident.

Taking Risks

"You have to take risks. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen. 

Everyday God gives us the sun - and also one moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy. Every day, we try to pretend that we havent perceived that moment, that it doesnt exists - that today is the same as yesterday and will be the same as tomorrow. But if people really pay attention to their everyday lives, they will discover that magic moment. It may arrive in the instant when we are doing something mundane, like putting our front-door key in the lock; it may lie hidden in the quiet that follows the lunch hour or in the thousand and one things that all seem the same to us. But that moment exists - a moment when all the power of the stars becomes a part of us and enables us to perform miracles.

Joy is sometimes a blessing, but it is often a conquest. 

Our magic moment helps us to change and sends us off in search of our dreams. Yes, we are going to suffer, we will have difficult times, and we will experience many disappointments - but all of this is transitory; it leaves no permanent mark. And one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journey we have taken.

 Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps he wont suffer the way people do when thay have a dream to follow. But when that person looks back - and at some point everyone looks back - he will hear his heart saying, "What have you done with the miracles of God planted in your days? What have you done with the talents God have bestowed on you? You buried yourself in a cave because you were fearful of losing those talents. So this is you heritage: the certainty that you wasted your life."

Pitiful are the people who must realize this. Because when they are finally able to believe in miracles, their life's magic moments will have already passed them by."

Na margem do rio Piedra eu sentei e chorei

Book Review: Quotes of Love

The novel, By the River Piedra I Sat and Wept of the famous Paulo Coelho, reflects and answers some of the most asked questions about the depth of love and life and as well as the magical and mysterious powers of God. While reading the novel, I was enchanted by how Paulo Coelho define Love and Life in most parts of the book while relating it to the main character, Pilar and her companion. It is a must-read novel for me. So I recommend it if you're really looking for the true meaning of Love.

The following are some of the lines that kind of had an impact on me. I'm sorry but I just can't help sharing some of it to you:

"Love is much like a dam: if you allow a tiny crack to form through which only a trickle of water can pass, that trickle will quickly bring down the whole structure, and soon no one will be able to control the force of the current. For when those walls come down, then love takes over, and it no longer matters what is possible or impossible; it doesn't even matter whether we can keep the loved one at our side. To love is to lose control."

"Love is a trap. When it appears, we see only its light, not its shadows."

"Life takes us by surprise and orders us to move toward the unknown - even when we don't want to and when we think we don't need to."

"There are some things in life that are worth fighting for to the end."

"The universe always helps us fight for our dreams, no matter how foolish they may be. Our dreams are our own, and only we can know the effort required to keep them alive."

"Love doesn't need to be discussed; it has its own voice and speaks for itself."

"...love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointments and sadness. The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us. And to save us."

"...happiness is something that multiplies when it is divided."

"Love never comes just a little at a time."

"...truth resides where there is faith."

Strange Sorrow

I woke up silently this morning at around 5AM, but it was only around 6AM when I decided to get off my bed. There's not a trace of the ray of the sun. Just clouds carrying the tears of the sky. The ambiance of my surrounding is gloomy.

While here I am, slouched on a sofa and writing this article, a part of me is strangely pushing me to go back into the realm of Sleep and continue an unfinished dream. It is strange but this isn't the first time I have felt this. Everything is so familiar.

Still. Quiet. Lifeless. Adjectives that perfectly fit the weird but familiar atmosphere of this morning. Despite the blabbering of the noisy radio announcer, the solemn song I hear as the droplets of the rain hit the ground and the graceful dancing of the curtains as it sway with the cold whisper of the morning breeze, left me wandering in the world of trance.

Last night, like all the other nights of this past week, I quietly sat on a cold concrete curb, under the orange light of a nearby streetlamp. I sat there looking for stars. But instead found a blank purple sky with large gray masses flying fast over me. It has always been that way since. And I was just wondering, when will be the next time.

I haven't seen the sun rising nor setting for these past few days. Grey clouds are always obscuring the light of the stars and the moon. I don't know what's happening, but it surely brings a different kind of sorrow for me...