Thursday, February 24, 2011

Stage Fright

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Tulala. Nakita ko na lamang ang sarili ko sa harapan ng tatlong tao. Nakatutok ng mariin ang isang kamera sa mukha ko. Kinukunan ang bawat emosyon, bawat birit, bawat nota na aaliw-iw sa hangin ng bakanteng kwarto. Bakit parang naulit lamang ang kinalalagyan ko? Bakit pagkatapos ng dalawang taon ay mapupunta na naman ako sa sitwasyong ganito?

I auditioned last Valentine's Day in CAFA Idol 2011, an amateur singing search for aspiring vocal-belters held annually during our beloved College Week. Winning that premier title as the next best singing sensation in our college wasn't really on my list for I have joined only with that desire to overcome my fear of singing in front of a larger audience. But yesterday, after an emotional roller coaster of dealing with what-could-haves, I finally and officially told the organizers that I'm stepping down.

I felt relieved but defeated all the while. I joined this competition for the second time but cowered like hell at the last minute. Fear won over me - again! But I guess I really need not to go over that to finally accept that I'm not really fit to be in such singing contests, and that my voice truly is cut out to sing only in church services.


15 comments:

  1. ok lang yan... its better to try compare to do nothing di ba?
    ika nga nila may kanya-kanya tayong natatagong galing :D
    cheers

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  2. @kuya axl: hanggang wat tym yung pic greeting? ahaha. realizations...

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  3. aw sayang naman. okay lang yan, kantahan mo nalang ang labidabs mo.hehehe

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  4. @kuya Kyle: uu. labidabs ko si Lordy :) ahahah! apir!

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  5. try mo kaya kumanta tapos post mo sa blog mo

    kahit sa american idol eh nervous din sila

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  6. do not accept that you're not for singing contest...but accept that you're over powered by fear,so that you can solve this problem hehehe. kaya mo yan...try ka ulit...

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  7. @Milch: magpasikat sa Youtube? ganun? pwede! ahaha!

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  8. @Ronster: whoa. I wish I could. Maybe in Quartet Idol kung meron man. Or maybe sa Last Choir Standing :) hindeng-hinde ako magbaback-out sa ganyan... ahehe...

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  9. wahehehe.. you can overcome stage fright ganyan din ako nung una..w aheheh

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  10. Awe that's not good! you will overcome it someday! I'm sure of it! They obviously picked you so you MUST be good at singing! You just need some helpful and guiding words to inspire you! Don't give up!

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  11. Wow pareho pala tayong singer sa church. Try and try lang bro. Ganyan talaga. :)

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  12. @Kikz: ohhh. thanks bro :)

    @Adrian Paul: dude, I just saw the videos in your blog :) beautiful!

    @Arvin: apir! :)

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  13. chong next toime invite mo kami to cheer po!

    anyway still you are a winner

    just doing what you like and followed your heart's desire yun un ang importante

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  14. hala at nakiki-kuya ka narin. T_T grabe parang tanda ko na talaga.

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  15. @Kuya uno: awwwww. thanks :)

    @Kuya Kyle: ahehe. wala yan sa age. nasa paggalang iyan :) ayeee! iginagalang ko kasi kayu. pak!

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