Stopping Time

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Golden memories of my highschool days came flashing inside my head as if Death came to visit, to take me on a journey. From the first time I set my foot in the campus of our school to the most dramatic occasion of my highschool life, the Graduation, I will surely treasure and cherish those priceless memories for the rest of my life.

Standing still in time and stopping everything around amidst all the noise and chaos, maybe is the most wonderful thing that could ever happen to me. But as life goes on, and as the fire trees continue to shed their blazing fiery blooms, an obvious sign of the passing summer, the vision of the world coming into a complete pause will yet remain a distant blurry dream...

Reflecting my HS life!

Time really fly so quickly...

It is already June by Friday and before you know it, I'm already attending classes in BS Architecture. The memory of my highschool days will stay in my heart forever though I must admit that up until this day, it seems that I cant accept that it's all over. It's frustrating, you know. Even though you've said a million times to yourself that it's going to be alright, that it's going to be okay, you still cannot change the reality that those persons attached already in your heart will not be at your side anymore. That somehow, the bond that's already between you will be broken. That someday, there will come a point in which you'll realize that you're not on the same track anymore and that each and everyone of you have already gone to live in separate lives.

I cant help but to feel negative about this 'hello college, goodbye highschool' thing. I mean I haven't really thought about it that much since I'm into getting the most of my friends' time on our last days before Graduation. It is only by these summer days the impact of the situation hit me when I can no longer feel their presence.

I don't want to get used to this. I just want to keep in touch because sooner or later I know that the lack of communication between me and my highschool friends will ignite the 'ignore-when-you-meet-on-the-street-as-if-you-never-knew-each-other-at-all' thing. Okay, now that's something I know I don't want to happen!!!

But you know what? Beneath all these sadness and great longing the situation is causing me, one thing still exists that I know to be true. That is wherever destiny takes me, I will never forget to acknowledge them for being a part of my life and for leaving something that makes up who I am today - memories, whether good or bad, that will remain preserved inside me for as long as I live.

I love you guys. I will surely miss you in college.

May 22 at my Journal...

Talking 'bout my love, Kitty...

We stayed up late until 12:35 yesterday, sending text messages to each other... I used my mama's cellphone and she, on the other hand, used her Ate Jenny's. I really had a great slumber knowing that she's the last one in the real world I had contact with before dozing off to Dream Land. She was really sweet and it really warms my heart knowing that she's just somewhere, not far away from home, awake in the middle of the night, and sharing the same feeling as I feel... I even took down her text messages because my mom's inbox is full that I could no longer take in incoming messages.... AAAAAHHHHH!

I'm going to love her for the rest of my life!!!

College Culture Shock!

Speaking of college, I'm getting more nervous each day as the first day of school looms a step closer from the corner. I went to PUP yesterday morning to request for a breakdown of fees needed for my scholarship. I went with my brother because that day was also the day of enrollment for CE students. I was scared by all these college students walking around or sitting in benches together in groups. I was most scared by my brother's classmates who were chatting on and on, ignoring me, and minding their own businesses. I wasn't expecting that for my brother's friends. I mean, I was kinda looking forward to meeting them, talking to them, or giving me a tour to the campus since I was new in there.

But I was wrong. It was a NIGHTMARE. I was just sitting on a bench there, frozen and doing nothing at all, while I can sense a very strange feeling that every body's eyes on me and that I don't belong there. It really feels I'm on a different dimension, you know, surrounded by all these strange creatures.

It was a good thing my brother came to the rescue! He decided to accompany me to the main building so I can proceed on my matters and finally go home. It was a relief to know that my brother is there to catch my back.

In return, he demanded that I pay his bill for the pedicab fair...