Subtle Ways

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It’s been almost a month since I opened myself to the idea of online dating, signed up for one, and made a perfectly crafted profile in the hopes of meeting that special someone. Mag-iisang month na rin simula nung nakilala ko sya dun sa online dating site. What I like about this person is that mukha naman talaga syang totoo at makatao unlike nung mga previously kong na-meet (sa text or in person) na well, super pretentious at puro yabang lang.

We’ve been exchanging sweet nothings ever since we got hold of each other’s digits as we go about sending each other text messages. Masaya kasi for one month we have built up a good companionship sa text. Hindi kumpleto yung araw ko ng hindi sya kinakamusta sa mga activities niya.

Marami-rami na rin naman kaming napag-usapang makabuluhan sa text. I’ve learned na goal-oriented syang tao which is good kasi alam niya kung anong gusto niyang ma-achieve sa buhay. Sya yung nagbabantay nun sa sister niya na nasa hospital during the first weeks na kinikilala pa lang namin ang isa’t isa (mabait syang kapatid!). At sya din yung nagcomfort sa’kin over the phone during the lowest times of my campaign period when all my frustrations and self-inflicted pressure seemed to take its toll on me. Sobrang na-appreciate ko naman yung mga subtle ways kung saan napapasaya nya talaga ako.

Hay. Yun nga lang lately kasi medyo nagiging tahimik na sya sa pagtetext unlike nung mga una. Ayoko mag-isip ng kung anu-ano na ikasisira lang ng kung anumang nararamdaman ko na para sa kanya. Kaya ayun sinasanay ku na rin yung sarili ko.

I understand na hindi lang sa akin umiikot ang mundo niya and I also understand na meron rin naman syang ibang pinagkakaabalahan. I’m trying my best as well to act as maturely as I can about this matter and simply hold on to the promises we made until the day we finally meet in flesh.

Am I foolish to put my trust on someone I haven’t even met? Siguro. Pero katulad din nung sinabi niya, ‘We gotta take the risks. It would definitely hurt if love fails but avoiding it wouldn’t help either.’ At nangako rin naman ako to take the risk na kasama sya.

Sana lang matuloy-tuloy na yung matagal naming pinaplanong date para maging official na ang lahat. Up til then kasi, mananatiling konsepto lamang ang mga salitang binibitawan namin sa isa’t isa. Sana dumating na kami dun sa puntong nagiging totoo na ang lahat.